I cannot believe how fast christmas has snuck up on me this year. Maybe I have been too busy to notice! The boys are doing good, a little sick right now, but they are happy to have a tree up and presents under it.
Christmas will be different this year without a doubt, a lot of firsts.. I'm finding that the more times goes by, the more i miss my brother.. I wish he was here because in so many ways he is like my best friend , someone who is always there when i need him. Hes been strong for me when I couldnt be. I cannot wait for him to be home.
Lately I've been thinking back to all the years of being a little kid, being home with my family and how care free I was. Sometimes its hard not to want to go back to those days, I am trying very much to enjoy every part of my life i enter into, some days are easier. I miss the excitement you experience as a child, over the simplest of things, I remember my dad coming home from work, going somewhere with my mom, playing dolls with my sister or even cars with my brother. Now im in the real world where there are bills, car payments, living expenses and sweet little boys who seem to need everything they lay eyes on :)
I am at a place where i am truly becoming happy and content with me, accepting myself and trying to love ME. as well as trying to be ther person God has made me to be, Im seeking him and trying everyday to do what he wants me to do. He has a plan for me!
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